Not as strong

in poetry •  7 years ago  (edited)

For Halloween I dressed up as a slutty viking;
Chainmail bikini, leather pants so tight my butt felt huge,
and thighs swollen with each step against the creased fabric.

The shield was heavier than I expected,
The sword off balance and weighty:
I didn't realize I was not like a man till I tried to chop at a tree,
stumbled,
and almost impaled myself.

He laughed when I returned defeated,
and casually, like a mountain
shoved me,
and girlish, weak, I crumpled against his indifferent muscle.

** for some reason I feel the need to clarify: I didn't realize I wasn't as strong as a guy, as powerful, as capable, as boys until I tried to attack a tree with a heavy sword and saw myself stumble and almost kill myself on video. There is nothing more humbling that seeing yourself on camera so weak and inept it shatters your self image.

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I'm going to running away from men vs womens topic.

I don't like the word strong and i prefer the word stregth.

Strong in my point of view is a more subjetive word and it depends of a lot of facts, "strong" is a temporary characteristic.

Strenght as i understand it is a mind ability and can be apply to whole life, as example... who is stronger? a bodybuilder, a marathon runner,
a basketball player?... i think it depends on the ability to get the best of their body capacities.
A person 2,10m height and 120kg that can lift 60kg obiously has not the same strengh that a 1,80m and 80kg person who are able lo lift the same weight, they are equal at the strong characteristic but the streght needed for the activity and training of the 80kg person is higher.

Another thing that i think have to be taken into account is the "need" factor, i'm pretty sure if you lived in a forest part of the world where chopping trees is neede for cooking, heating and such you will be able to do it as a lot of mens.

We feel ouself clumsy doing things we dont have practice, let me another example have you seen a bush folk in the city?
they are clumsy they dont have the rythm of the city, they dont have practice...
There are just one thing worse than a bush folk in the city... a city person trying to do things in the country or the farm... so absolutely bad at all activies, a camera (like you said) in those moments could be killer

And lasty... you were dressed for going a customes party not for trying chop trees :-)

Take this less as a woman/men topic, and more just a realization that I'm not equal to a guy no matter what I do. I'm a weak ass girl through and through. The guys I was with on Halloween at a party were using my sword to attack trees in the backyard and I thought I could do the same thing, but nope. I failed hard.

Your point about the things we have no practice with, we don't do well was well put, like the bush in the city. Not your sphere or experience. Looking back I had no reasonable expectation to do swing a sword with any skill, but figured I could do what they were doing. I mean, I'm strong. Nope. Not that strong.

It was humbling.

it's humbling when you realize you dont do a thing as you expected and much more if there are other persons close.
Those situations brokes our "ego" but i think its just a thing of adjust our expectations about ourselfs in that topic.
And you are not a weak ass girl it's just you dont work cutting trees and althought i dont know you weight is 40-50 kg less than those guys.
So those guys with another men who weight 50kg more than them will feel are not so strong... of course taking into account all persons works out in the same way.
So i just feel bad if i dont do all i can do in a topic knowing my limits, by example... i'm not going to be the stronger men in the world (there's always other stronger than you and more smart, and such...) i just need to be the maxium strong as i can and when i cant go gym as often as i can it makes me feel bad.
And i only measure things when i have a little idea, ability of be able to progress, of course if i go to the space as astronaut nowadays... you can guess my work there could sucks as much as you cutting trees :-)