I am not the thoughts in my head

It all came so quickly,
Then came to an end,
I am not the thoughts in my head.
I’m not the things that I dread
Or the things that have lead
Me to the the things I thought were right
Never looked in once, just acted out of fright.
Many many nights,
Searching for an external end.
When all I needed, was to change the thoughts in my head.
Believe me when I tell you, I now understand
I now know exactly how it feels to be where you stand.
How your palms sweat and your heart will race
The dark thoughts that lie behind your face
And you just start to pace..
And you’re just standing in space
Sorry it took so late to land..
Now I can’t even lend a hand
I can’t even stand
I can’t make a sound.
Maybe one day we can walk the same grounds
And somehow be found
In the depths of the walls
As the glistening light dimishes is all
No more non sense and brawl
Can we just go back to the fall?
Or the very start of it all?
Wecan re-write the past..
But it is up to us to see what is meant to last,
And as the shadow casts,
I have hope for tommrow
I hope to bring you happiness and drown the sorrow
And we can begin to share and borrow
Maybe tommrow ,
Just maybe