As The Clock Keeps Ticking

I wrote this poem when I was dealing with pospartum depression after the birth of my son. I couldn't understand why I was in such deep despair when I had this beautiful blessing in my arms, but I couldn't shake the baby blues for quite a long time. I just felt stuck. Like life was on "pause". I felt like life was moving on for everyone else, but I was stuck in the despair...I could see the morning light (the hope on the other side) but it never seemed to get closer.

As The Clock Keeps Ticking-

As the clock keeps ticking
My heart stands still
Life must go on
But I just have no will

And as time passes by
I see the morning light
But still my heart remains
In the dark and gloomy night

No more sorrow
No more joy
No more feelings
They're all just a coy

My mind will remain
As a part of this time
But as the clock keeps ticking
There will be no chime.

Thanks for stopping by!

I have to say that while the joy, the light, the happiness seemed out of reach, it did eventually happen. So, if you are dealing with postpartum depression, please go seek help. It is a chemical imbalance from the sudden drop in hormones after giving birth. Don't sit in misery for another second. Go get help. And if you have feelings of wanting to harm your baby, ask someone to help you care for the baby and you seek help immediately. Do not be ashamed of this! I did not have this particular part of postpartum depression, but it isn't your fault.

Sincerely-Oily

@weetreebonsai

I can relate! I had no idea what was wrong with me after I had my twins almost 3 decades ago....I was so afraid to tell my doctor because I thought I would have my kids taken away from me! Eventually, I did get some help, but it was a long road to wellness...still traveling it in some ways. You express yourself very well!

Thank you Karen. And I am so sorry you know how I was feeling. It was a very dark place. I am thankful I received help and that I came out on the other side of the darkness. I do sometimes still have issues with depression, but thankfully nothing like I did then.

Yes, it is a recurring theme in my family too....fortunately, we now know about the healing properties of EOs and don't have to rely on the meds so much with those awful side effects! I use a blend called Cheer Up Buttercup made by Now. I infuse it for most of the day (when I'm in a bad way) and it really does seem to help my mood.

That is wonderful! I am so happy to have found EO's! I cannot imagine how I lived without them. Can you? Lol!

No I can't! It is life-changing to find a natural and effective treatment.

Ahha another jewel being shown!

That's a good bit of advice. I've heard that it affect a lot of women and that guilt and shame keep them from seeking help.

Yes it can. Or they just don't understand what is happening. Very sad,

Amazing how you put your feelings into verse so well! Following you!

I just posted a poem myself if you're interested!

Thank you! 😊 I will check out your poem.