to think
even after it all, i want you
if you could just reopen your eyes you were so quick to shut
i wanna creep my way back into you
slide my slug trail all over your heart
mark what was mine like a dog
but i can't and never again will
instead, i'll think
of how you gazed at me
you idoled me
love me
i drained, sucked, mutilated
i didn't care as long as i got my fill
wanted love but was raised to use
there's no amount of love that i've given to any other lover
to ever exceed my past admiration for you
it makes me happy you found someone more depressed than you
maybe you'll finally open you fucking eyes to the world that has been gift wrapped for you