Deeply Rooted to the Energies of the Earth

I am usually so proud of my deeply rooted connection to the Earth’s energy and the energy of those around me. I love the way it allows me to be closely in touch with the world and people around me. My empathy is one of my best traits. Sometimes, however, this surrounding energy can just be so negative that it takes a really heavy toll on me emotionally, physically, and spiritually.

Currently, people around me in my city are engaging in hysterical acts of “preparedness” for the approaching hurricane. There is absolutely nothing wrong with being prepared and I am certainly not saying we should let the storm sneak up on us. But there is a HUGE difference between being prepared vs acting like a hysterical idiot. Price gouging, the hoarding of gas and bottled water, animals being left behind, my Aunt living on the coast, these are all things that are affecting me in a really real way. I can literally feel these negative vibes being manifested inside of me but I HAVE to become aware of this before it can overtake my thoughts and feelings.

I have to be very vigilant and real with myself and my emotions, because otherwise I attribute the way I feel to things happening immediately around me – instead of the deeper cause, which is the negative energy all around. I have to be aware so I can turn to my healing crystals, stretching, and meditation. And this process takes time! I like to physically write down every single thing that is bothering me and then just let that list sit there. I give it some time and try to relax with breathing exercises, then read the list again, this time writing a positive solution or comment after each one. This gives me an incredible feeling of peace and more importantly, it allows me to determine what the real causes of my anxiety/ negative internal states are. The more I learn about human emotions, the more effectively I can tact, or label, my emotions and deal with them.

Today, for example, I had to deal with my bank charging me something I didn’t authorize, and then getting a letter from my car insurance company giving me just one more thing to worry about before the end of the month. @dwizard and @amvankaken were extremely supportive in helping me proactively deal with those things today, but the issues still had me so worked up. I could feel an intense physically shift in feeling “normal” to feeling extreme somatic symptoms of anxiety. But the two things weren’t what was really bothering me. I knew this in my head, but couldn’t pinpoint any other causes. UNTIL I went through the process of writing, reflecting, and being very real with myself. And of course, letting off some Steem with this post J

The month of Sept has always been really charged for me, for lack of a better description. It is my birthday month and for some reason that has also physically and mentally affected me A LOT every single year, especially now that I am older and don’t live with my parents anymore. There’s just this feeling inside that I can’t settle until I bring it to consciousness and then try to actively deal with it. It’s much easier to shift blame and responsibility for my feelings to other things, especially Darian (sorry bae, you’re just usually the closest thing to the eye of my internal storm – too soon for Hurricane jokes?)

One thing that has been really helpful is wearing crystals. Right now I am wearing an amethyst beaded choker, all the way around my neck are tiny stones, as opposed to one charm dangling at the chest. But it wasn’t until I grabbed the necklace, reminded myself of its ability to help clear my mind that it actually started helping me feel better. And it really did! Perhaps just a placebo, but I don’t even care, because either way I literally got an immediate sense of relief from my internal struggle. I am also wearing Smokey quartz because it is said to help ward off negative vibes, which Gainesville seems to be full of right now and I need all the protection from that madness I can get. I intend to buy a small piece of orgonite asap so I can wear that too, as I totally believe in the physical benefits that can be achieved through just being in close proximity to orgonite.

Anyway thanks for reading my post, stay safe and protected out there friends!