A blog is a blog is a blog

Starting my workday has never been easier! That is of course a lie. It is always hard for me to start. But writing a simple blog post a day keeps the pigdog (Schweinehund) away. I am in for a surprise. And this surprise is that although I am putting time and effort there are no guarantees that thins are going to improve. That's not surprising you might say.
True, it is not a surprising realization but I'm still surprised every day it doesn't feel easier to be me. Don't get me wrong I am not wining about how hard my life is. I like my life and it is awesome but the challenge of sticking to the routine every day cannot be more inconsistent in its difficulty.
Why is that? If I only knew... There are certainly some biological factors at play like sleep, eating and the like. But controlling for all the variables that could influence a good day is even more challenging than sucking it up and working, when you don't feel like working. Of course this is only when you are already in the trenches - demotivated and ready to turn on the TV and absentmindedly sink into some exhausting hammering of information.
Modifying the biological factors of your daily routine is easy when you feel motivated. It is exciting to see that when you tweak some little aspect the nature of experience changes and life obtains a different flavor. Pushing yourself towards change might, however , deprive you of the pleasure of noticing the effects of little changes. It is effortful to push and it makes you insensitive to the little joys of noticing changes.
The more we push the more difficult the task grows! Letting go and moving with the flow then? No, but kind of... Discipline is harsh, lack of it is even worse, but there seems to be no right answer to the amount of discipline required for a meaningful improvement. It all depends. Chance still rules our lives even though it might seem otherwise. This is the point of going with the flow perhaps. We make plans and attempt to follow them trough but never et discouraged if by chance we end up screwing up the plan. Adapting to the changing conditions of both environment and mood is crucial to cultivate the beginners mentality required for us to never give up on attempting to be better.