Today I honour my body

Where do I find the words
I don't think there is any
I seem only to find tears that follow flashes of memories
Tears that bring me back to the beginning..
When I stood looking in the hospital mirror at my unrecognizable self, stretched and torn... I wasn't going for that mothered look. I was actually avoiding it..I tried so hard not to getting any marks at all...I worried as I rubbed the oil on day after day....
After the first mark showed up I felt defeated. more followed, and I slowly came into acceptance as my excitement grew..
But on that day, at that very vivid and colourful moment I saw myself, my true self, my body was this divine sanctuary with which a seed could be planted and grown into this perfect little human..
I recall thinking "but I didn't have to do anything, how could this just happen so perfectly"
I'm still in awe to this day at the miracle of life
That day, a mother was born
I thought... as i stared at myself... I love this body... thank you thank you thank you, for all the tiny Miracles that needed to come together at the right moment, so that this child could be nourished. So that she and I could be born into this experience...
After that day, this body went on to accomplish many other amazing things.......
today I stand in awe of this body again, today I bow to it, for its wisdom, its intelligence, its knowing what my babies have always needed...
8 1/2 years of nourishment has come directly from this form, in service of the highest and greatest good of these precious little people..
It is time. She is ready, I am ready... and they are ready.. to let go
We will not forget, there is too many wonderful memories to count.
I will wear this mothered look forever on. I will look upon it with pride and gratitude, I will cherish the memories the marks bring me. I promise to nourish her in return, to speak to her to her with only loving kindness. This body is my temple, she is sacred and wise... and I love her for so very very much.
For I know all that she has done for them, done for me 💕🙏🙌

What has your body done for you?