Take care of myself first. My psychology and emotions. Haha! Well. Freaking out and feeling creeped out has served me well then! I have stayed true blue. I have that hidden other dimension community energy. With the encouragement and health that we all have in side true wealth if we could just hush for a moment and stop sidelining ourselves.
If I could go back to any time I would probably have the same response time as the now time. I have no time to waste. In youth as now I would not want to waste time sending a message. If I'm coming back to myself and story in ways I will find themes and rhythms I can flesh out and go by. I have felt the scramble and disorientation.
I would stay up and tell stories to anyone of my true feelings. The days were busy and I felt drained of the inspiration from physical weariness. Yet my mind would still be active. If I could get down the core ideas and passion in my mind I could sort out the rest later. I have found pieces, references and tangiblites. If I could sit down and type without external worry. Get a theme as story going.
If after awhile the story and the theme with the characters seem off I can change it up. I'm remembering to change it up. Change up the ways, make new sayings. Remembering I may not have to change I may be just fine!! The whole society would need to shift in order for me to feel complete. The outside is wired and tame. I am wild and detached but not dissociative. I would not go down what they call an abyss. It's not an abyss. I have my own experience. I can quote my own experience better than they can quote each other. To them it may seem as an abyss but to me it's my own peace of mind.
Been in a place during a decade. Took a large hit at the end. Been almost floundering for almost another decade. I have made sure in my rage that I do not age. I kept the wild heart spirit alive. Even if I'm very alone at times. I need that social strength and am not happy with current social life. Once they hear and see what I'm upto I'm sure they will get it. I could use some help so don't be surprised when I little red hen it!
I've been known for my gatherings in the bright of day! I detest the nightlife gone wrong, it never held sway that way. I'm on my mission. Don't need no permission. It's dear people gone missing I miss them. In their memory I can uplift them. So don't get in my way. I always come back everyday.
See through language. Learn to re-speak. The beakers and tweakers of mayhem left out of this brink, this robot consumerist clique tick clink.
