Why is it that whenever you think that everything is going good but really everything is shit... We all live with our own personal chaos no matter what for it takes our mind and twists our thoughts to the point where you can't cope with it or you have the power to create order yourself or ask for help it's up to you how it will come to pass.
If anyone reading follows a spiritual path not so much a religus one. But a belief that the universe and it's constant flux back and fourth and the idea that flow of the universe controles our actions and our feelings... (the universal Force in Star Was) the belief that there is no chaos only harmony and that through proper consontration and and self disaplin can you finally be at your center and that you can properly atune yourself to that harmony that we deserve.