I used to wake up with my neck partially locked up from my CPAP mask for my sleep apnea. My chiropractor has found that the vertebrae in my neck are being shoved into my skull by the straps of the mask. I am not alone in this either. Every patient he has that uses these masks are experiencing similar issues. My Husband usually has to rub my neck in the mornings to loosen the muscles enough for me to be able to crack my neck in release.
A couple of years ago, upon waking, I found myself experiencing a feeling of irritability. I stood in my kitchen staring at my floor looking at what I was experiencing. As I stood there my Husband came up behind me and wrapped me in a hug. It felt good yet did not allieve the feeling I was experiencing.
After a little while I tried to verbalize what I was experiencing. Still I could not pinpoint what it was. After a bit my Husband started to talk about some things he was looking at. I found myself experiencing a violent vision. I tried to express what I was seeing and the emotions I was experiencing to my Husband. His response was less than positive. I can see why when I think of the words I was sharing and the pictures it painted for him.
In my vision I was seeing the people he was talking about and their words and actions. Every word they utter is used for maximum effect. A baseball bat or ball ping hammer enfiscises each and every word as it breaks a bone to prolong the pain and suffering as they announce each and every judgment they would lay upon their brother. Until every bone is broken and they are huddled in a mass on the floor begging for the agony to stop. The same one breaking those bones is the one to telling them they know the way and to follow them.
As I witnessed these actions in the vision I replaced whoever was being judged with the one judging. I was seeing them suffering from their own words as each strike of the bat or hammer crushed another bone. I could feel their agony and suffering as each word struck home again and again. The words, "Forgive them. For they know not what they do.", keeps playing through my mind.
HS is explaining it to me now. They are judging everyone around them as being broken and needing to be fixed. They are not able to or willing to accept their brothers where they are because they are unable to accept themselves and where they are at. Until they are willing to look at these judgments they hold so tightly too. They will continue to suffer and inflict suffering on those they interact with. Their ego has replaced true love with judgment. They cannot love completely if they cannot accept completely their brothers and themselves.
Until I can love myself and accept myself completely. I will not be able to accept anyone or anything else completely either. When I love myself someone else may love me. I was taught to judge and be judged. To seek out the approval of my peers. HS has shown me the folly of that foolish belief system. That belief system ends in Cancer, Diabetes, And every other disease or illness that abounds in this reality. That is what our ego judgments bring us as an reward for passing the lesson along. Pain, suffering, and then eventually death. This is the ego thought system in a nutshell. This is the path and out come you choose each time you choose to judge another or yourself.
Are you ready to choose again? Are you ready to choose differently this time? The choice is up to you. Only you can make this choice. Only you...
I have made my choice. I chose again and I choose Holy Spirit this time. I am learning choosing to accept. That HS will show me His Truth with His vision. To hear His Truth with His ears. Come walk with me in His Truth and His Light. Share what He has taught you on your journey home. Come walk with me...Brother. Walk with me...
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.