“I discovered for myself and by myself that there is no self to realize – that’s the realization I am talking about. It comes a shattering blow. It hits you like a thunderbolt. You have invested everything in one basket, self-realization, and in the end, suddenly you discover that there is no self to discover, no self to realize – and you say to yourself “What the hell have I been doing all my life?!” That blasts you.”
-Krishnamurti
With Saturn sitting right on top my natal Neptune right now, I’m blasted by all these things too. Saturn giving structure and form to the ultimate and final illusion of reality as represented by Neptune. And what happens when we try to give structure to something that doesn’t actually exist? It doesn’t work. Nothing happens. Nothing except seeing that what we thought was real and precious and sacred was only illusory to begin with.
And then what?
Still working through all that myself, but suffice to say that it has been a helluva awakening and realizing process. But even to attempt saying that is false. There’s nothing to awaken. There’s nothing to realize. One cell, one atom, does not need to do anything except exist (and perhaps it doesn’t even need to do that). But at the end of the day there’s nothing required of it. And if this reality is all One, if there is no separation between anything, then is there really anything that needs to be done? Is there anything that needs to happen other than existence, just as it is?
Neptune was in Capricorn from the end of 1984 to 1997, and so anyone born during this time period will have Saturn transit their natal Neptune sometime during the next couple of years. If you were born 1984 – 1988/89 then it’s either just happened, will be in the immediate future, or is happening right now.
It’ll take form in any multitude of ways for so many people, but a common form could be a disillusioning experience, an experience where what you thought was rock solid and real turns out not to be so. Disillusionment is a challenging experience for sure, but what is it other than de-illusioning yourself, seeing through the illusions and delusions of your reality and and your perception of existence. And when seen it that light, how could it be a negative thing?
Neptune is said to be in its Fall in Capricorn, aka a sign it doesn’t like very much. But maybe that’s just because in such an earthy, grounded, and practical sign it can’t keep up its smoke and mirrors, the deception, the illusion that drives all of humanity.
Ah but here we are, the Neptune in Capricorn generation, facing a transit where the things that Neptune likes the least: definition, solidity, proof, reason, structure, are blasted in its face even more. Can Maya keep up the game? That’s for you to decide ;)
What a gift, this existence.
Anyone else from this generation feeling this deprogramming from the illusions? [and of course, anyone from any generation can have these realizations too]