MY STORY WITH HYPOGLYCEMIA

so i'm going to start with this post as i hate having this , i hate being this way it makes me feel embarrassed because iv been the kind of girl who is independent and doesn't need help but i'm getting ahead of myself here lets start with how i got it .
it all started when i was teenager and i got called fat and obese ( mind you i weighed 120 ) and i got it at home a lot too and i started starving myself and skipping meals or i made myself puke so i could lose weight eventually i was super skinny but i still told myself i was too fat , all the drugs i was on also was a help in my weight loss but i didn't know what i was doing to my body i thought i was going to walk out with nothing wrong. but i was sadly mistaken , when i got clean and stopped starving myself , something happened to me and i didn't know what was happening but it scared me , at first it started as super hungry and couldn't get enough to i felt shaky and dizzy and fall unconscious . i was so terrified i didn't know what happened , i got rushed up to the hospital and the doctor did blood work and diagnosed me with hypoglycemia and explained to me mine has more of the severe symptoms when i get to low and its life threatening if i don't take care of myself.
i cant even begin to explain how scared i was but i did the meetings i needed to and tried to keep it up but its harder then you think .
i remember i had a 5$ on me and i was going to McDonald's to get a burger cause i was feeling hungry but when i started walking through the mall to get the food i felt dizzy and the whole mall started to spin and i had to be rushed up to the hospital once again .
my life is being in and out of the hospital because i didn't have anyone to help me unless it was a stranger and they just call an ambulance , the doctor just sees whats happening and give me a glycogen shot which helps alot , but then i usually had to barf , too much at once you know .
okay so know that your all caught up i'm gonna bring you to now
so when i met mike @darkflame he was very kind and gentle i allows had candy in my bag so i didn't have to look like a total fool in front of this guy but this were going good , mike became my best friend except he didn't know my condition it was really embarrassing for me to spill because i didn't wanna get blamed for having it or the worst having people pity you like my grandmother does every time she sees me.
so anyways there was one time i didn't eat and i got super low on super and i felt dizzy and collapsed still conscious and started shaking really bad and i told him sugar , so he ran and grabbed the sugar grounds or honey and put it in my mouth and eventually i felt better and started thanking him but i knew i wasnt getting out of this without answering questions first so i sat down and answered every question he had and i explained i was a hypoglycemic and i just forgot to eat my candy today so he kinda felt upset that i had it and he told me this exactly "don't worry Dessy , i'm gonna take care of you!" and he has , i mean i'm alive and writing this vlog , but i seemed to have gotten worse with this ,there are days where i fall unconscious and i stop breathing and mike has to give me CPR to bring me back to life .

this condition sucks a lot as much as i have a huge supporting man that reminds me everyday to eat
i hate waking up from falling unconscious and getting the headaches and seeing him cry with joy because i'm alive , i never wanna see him shed a tear unless its happy tears . he tells me everyday to hold on and don't go in the light.

so just tonight i felt weak like i couldn't move and this was just after i got out of the bath and i told mike i didn't feel good so he immediately acts fast and grabs the honey and starts putting it in my mouth but i was still shaky and i told him i had to lay down and i started to shake worse and worse but i was conscious it was just my body taking its course well i ended up getting too much sugar too fast and i felt sick , my head hurt from the seizures and my tummy was super upset , he stayed my my side the whole time taking care of me till i felt better

all im saying is hypoglycemia is never easy to deal with but it takes time to adjust and make sure your glucose is up !