"I guess, I was one of the (un)fortunate ones who caught sight of the universe inside her eyes. I think I've told her everyday how it was my favorite part of her. Her warm brown eyes have always spelled out her thoughts, even before she gathered the courage to say the right words."

"I never wanted to be that guy who would stop his girlfriend from doing things she likes and spending time with people she cared about just because I missed spending time with her. Guess I became too much of that guy to the point that it looked like I didn't care? I don't know."

"Each day that passed by just had me rethinking my actions. What I did and didn't do. She was slipping away from me and it felt irreversible. I was terrified. How couldn't I be if I was losing someone who has been with me for so long that losing them meant losing part of me too?"

"It only got worse. We fought over the simplest things. I would cry, call her, she would hang up, tell me she was busy as always. Sometimes she would question the love and trust I had for her. Maybe I deserved it. Maybe it was on me for not trusting her enough. We were a mess."

"Silent Sanctuary was gonna be there. I found myself at the back of the crowd during their set. They played Kundiman. It was one of our favorites. The entire time I only prayed she were there with me. I guess prayers do come true if you pray hard enough because there she was."

"I didn't go there to confront them and beat the shit out of the guy. I watched. Despite the distance between us, I could see her glow. Her happiness was radiating. It was bitter-sweet for me. The only thing in my head was, if I did love her I wouldn't ruin this moment for her."

"I should have said something about what I saw, but I was too focused on keeping her than arguing. I made excuses for her and thought that maybe she just needed someone at that time, who wasn't me. I fed myself what I wanted to believe in. I apologized to her too. We started over."

*"Still, I stayed. This went on for almost 2 years. I convinced myself that loving meant sacrificing and hurting this much. What kept me going was maybe if I show her that I'm still the same guy she fell in love with, maybe she'll realize it, leave him and choose to stay with me."

"But even the most stupid, stubborn, loving people get tired too. I don't know why it took long before I realized that if even just a small part of her still loved me, she would've chosen me long before. If she did love me, there wouldn't even be others. It would've only been me."

"Don't get me wrong, I'm not bitter (haha). In fact, she's still my favorite mistake. One I'd gladly commit over and over. Only I'd do things differently."

"A lot of people told us that maybe we were meant for each other, just under different circumstances. I admit, I love her, and I guess I always will. But I have also learned how to love myself, and I have her to thank for that."

"I guess that's it. People make mistakes - we fall too hard, or we fall too short, we hurt the ones who love us most, sometimes it's us who choose to hurt ourselves."

"The ones we love now may someday have different hands to hold, eyes to wake up to, different gestures and words to pick up, different types of cooking to criticize and miss all at once. It happens. Some are lucky to get it right the first time. As for the rest of us, keep loving."

The Lesson

Throughout the thread, we learned how he loved the girl so deeply that at first, even though it hurt, even though the pain dragged for far too long, he chose to stay. And I guess the real internal conflict was whether he'd choose to love himself more or choose to love her until she gives up.

After two effin long years, he finally made peace with himself. He let her go even though she's just barely holding on. It was not the kind of happy ending we'd want our love stories to end, but it's the ending that was much needed.

There are people we love so much that we get blinded by their own feelings. We want their dreams and wishes to come true but there will come a time that we should also accept the fact that we're not included in their visions. This Twitter thread can be just called a cheating story but what I see is a one of a kind love that beats the ideal. That beats the fairy tale.

For the guy, she may be the one that got away but I believe that he will find a love that he deserves. The kind of love that does not cheat. The kind of love that accepts, respects, and still chooses to fight. The kind of love that does not seek to hurt.

What he had for the girl is raw. His love is sincere beyond I can imagine. I kept reading it again and again until I stopped crying. But I agree when he said that "Leaving > Cheating".#