Rain water keeps falling, it's been raining all day ...
Hah, it feels lazy to do the activity. Finally, all I did was sit in my room. The sound of the rain was a little scary to me, but still dare to stare at any water that fell from the sky even just behind the window. Dewy water on the window panes indicates that the rain of the day is really heavy. I felt a shiver everytime there was air coming through my room's blur. Dingiiin once ...
Oh God why I remembered those memories ..
3 months ago
'assalamualaikum, who is this?'
'I'm Nurlin. Did you get it ..? '
'Yeah .. right you Nurlin? Nurlin how are you? '
'good alhamdulilah. How are you?'
'good, too'
Oh yes. I almost forgot. Nawir is a mysterious guy who always comes and goes in my life. I invented him on 1 December 2010, we dating 1 year after that he had no news. I do not know where to go. After 2 years I was reunited with him. Through the phone again.
After the phone conversation I was the same he started a new relationship. This time he's more romantic. More often news, more attention, and really good.
Every day I grow more affection with him. Every day he always give news. Early in the morning before he left for school he would call or sms me. After school, he would also call me or sms me. Later that night, he must call or sms me. Then he would call me or sms to wake me up at dawn prayers. he was like an alarm to me. he always reminds me of praying, eating, and others. he is also a motivator for me. I am always eager to do all my activities.
After 10 days we make up again, I made a meeting with him. It was Wednesday night, I do not remember what date. It was the most exciting night of my life. I met my prince after years of courtship we never met. We go to a place that I think is pretty romantic. There we are just stories about why he disappeared and did not give news. About his family, about his girlfriend after he has no news ..
After we talked at length, suddenly we fell silent. Surprised, he kissed my forehead .. I also replied with a romantic kiss. I've never kissed a guy in my life. He's the first guy I kiss. Can you imagine how shame me at that time. But not papalah, the important happy ..
The next day, we make another appointment. This time he invites me to a very romantic place. Pantaiiii .. well, the beach. We're sitting on the beach, enjoying the breeze.
That night was a very memorable night for me. Because that night he kissed my lips. Gilaaa, no boy kissed my lips other than him. he is the first person. And he's my first kiss .. ohh, God did not think ..
The first week turn it all up real maniiis,
Second week still sweet donk ..
Enter the third week, still sweet.
Enter the fourth week, sweet.
The first month it was all sweet. Enter the second month of sweetness lost turns so ...
Relapse his illness. From what was often nelpon, sms, ngasih news, now already not. Not at all. Once a week he gave news. Just imagine, how galaunya I waiting for news from him. In telfonin he said busy, again this is it. Many reasons do not know .
Ramadan came, I thought it would be like Ramadan in 2011 and then, when we started dating, when I was still romantic-romantic with him. I was wrong. Incorrectly wrong. he does not even ngabarin me, even for sms alone he never. Later fitting the end of Ramadan I try to contact him ..
He explains why he has not been lately. He said he does work, sells clothes at the night market ..
Pity my boyfriend really ..
After that night our relationship improved again, even more romantic than ever before. he's back again like the first fit we're backing ..
Suddenly I heard the news that he wanted to marry, I heard from his cousin, my friend in high school. I can not believe it, but after I asked him, it was true. Well, surprise me. Disappointed, very disappointed.
She explains why she is getting married and has to get married. She had impregnated the girl, and now she had given birth to a baby boy. Yahhh, I am sincere is .. I am also a woman, if I were in that girl's position, I would also urge her to marry me.
But, nawir told me that he just got married doang, not good. After the marriage immediately separated. Yes I thank-received aja. I accept his status, I accept his son. I let him marry the girl because I think after marriage he will definitely come back again. But the fact I received was beyond my reason.
On September 14, 2013 they officially became a married couple. Yes I'm fine. because I think he must be back again with me here.
The next day I called him, he did not lift my phone, disms not dibales.
Monday morning the 17th of september 2013 I received a sms from him
'dawn' sounds its sms
'he meant? Dawn what meaning? '
'dawn is my son's name'
'ohh, then? Are you still your wife or now? '
'still. I can not leave him. Her parents urged me to stay with her. '
Disappointed. Very disappointed. I was hoping he would come back with me again. I've tried to accept him as he is, accept his status, his son, but ...
Immediately I send him sms.
'ok. Means from now on assume we never have any relationship whatsoever. Assume we never know. May be happy with your new life .. Bye '
After sending the sms, I immediately broke my card, without waiting for a reply from him ..
Galauuu international level I was then. Now I'm trying to move on, but I can not. Well, I pasrahkan everything to God is .. His plan must be better .