How come I never saw?
I guess it’s hard to draw
Out reality
From the grip of love, that twin of insanity.
So easy to tell now, in this tomorrow,
The truth of all those moments I felt so low
For questioning that little smile at the end of your words
For momentarily trusting the tremors in my heart’s trembling chords.
It’s no wonder I hate me sometimes,
As I remember those terrible whiles,
Since it was I who helped you
Build that dream of you.
I should have realized when you carved
‘I love you’, the simple words I craved,
So close to the waves spat by the deep blue
On loose sand, your ease should have been a clue;
Should have known someday we would be a past,
That we wouldn’t last.
Yet,
Deep down in my gut,
Even after all the mess on our little journey we met,
I know I still won’t accept even if I could get
A chance to lose that thing which made me trust
On a flimsy dream that is far more than lust.