Television is for the birds. I hate it because it just soaks peoples minds into a reality of what people are trying to make reality look like. Like the gaydar that is everywhere these days. Nowhere in the world makes gay people look more innocent and real than on television. I hate shows that depict this as though it's everywhere, when it's not. There is actually a lot more heterosexual people than that, and they aren't showing these things on television rather than making people think that it's accepted widely to be gay. Don't get me wrong, I don't care one little bit if you're gay, I just don't think it's right, and don't care to have gay-nation shoved down my throat like people do as if I have to accept it. I can't!
I can't because it's against my religious/spiritual beliefs to accept it. And, that is for myself! So, again, I have no issue with gay people, or people that think that they are gay, but - rather than I believing that they are gay, I see a population that is confused about love. They say they hate God, but are looking for love. They try to make love, but don't know a thing about God. It to me is an utterly backwards way to be. I've studied the Bible. I'm no Bible Scholar, but I've got a great heart, and care about people. I care too much about people. So much so, that I've been willing to stay silent about a lot of things that have happened to me, where I wish I wouldn't have stayed silent about, simply for the reasons that now whatever has been happening to me, is in power of controlling my life, and making me go through motions in life where I know that it's not my life that I'm living, and that people don't know the real me, rather they can see an image of me, and see that I'm sad, or that I'm not doing well, and think that I'm a baby about the things that this world is willing to do to people. But, it's none of those things at all. I'm a happy person. Somewhere deep down inside of me where my most humble and meek self has been shoved into the core of my soul, I'm actually a really extremely happy person. I'm jaded by what this world has been doing to me, yeah, but I'm also a passionate person, and a forgiving one. And, while I forgive - I never though about whether or not these people could forgive themselves. And, who would!? After what some of these people have been doing to me, it's wrong to think that they could forgive themselves for making someone feel as though they wanted to die. And, at one point or another, I did, but I also knew for a fact that it wasn't me that was feeling these things, rather it was the created person that I've been made out to look like that was feeling these things. I, in fact, wanted to live more than ever, and with all these statist things, and being shot at, and not thinking about the matters that were true, I wasn't able to see a passionate people anymore that cared about my rights, rather - a people that wanted to keep their nip and tuck, crimes in a basket. And, so - this is why I began to write. I knew something needed to be said, before it never gets out. Had I died, no one would ever know the truth about me, my heart, my desires, my dreams, my hopes... etc... None of the things that I wanted people to know and feel about me would ever have been noticed. Call me crazy if you want, but I just want to be able to forgive the people that did me wrong. And, I wanted to be left alone and never have to worry about coming forward with the truth about them. But, I feel as though I'm being forced to it. You may wonder why and I can tell you why. It's because there are things that are stopping me in life, from living a natural progression in my life. There are things that are stopping my money from coming to me properly. There are things that are stopping me from even being able to pay my child support and keep my jobs, like cops. There are cops that I fear all making it impossible for good cops to do good work where my life is concerned. There are laws that are written that are being ignored. There are laws that I wanted to ignore myself, simply to just move along with my life, but there are people, who are in powerful placed in the world where I've lived, making sure that I'm not. And, I know it. I know that they are being bullies to me still, just like in high school. So, that they can't forgive themselves, I'm left to do the forgiving - if that makes sense. I'm left to be the one that has to come forward about the things that these people are doing, because - it's wrong! I never wanted to, but where my life has been pushed, it most certainly feels like, yeah, there are evil people in the world, but there aren't this many people who are evil unless it's organized. So, I studied organized harassment, and have blogs about this as well. I've become a writer! I've found my passion in life, and wanted to do a lot more than write about law, or write about what things have wronged me, including the law, and the people who provide that "law." But, it's something that I need to do, to protect myself from thuggery in this world. We live in a different time of our lives, and even was scared that World War was upon me in my life, where I was feeling forced into feeling plagued with bugs and mice and other things that black mold and water intrusion will make a person go through, and nothing is ever done about it where the law is concerned, rather making me to look like a criminal. I've studied mind-control technologies, and how people can use meta data against a [people] that they want to destroy. It's not using the law anymore to "protect" you rather it's using the law to "protect themselves" from you. If you're shot at? That's a felony, and a major one - I don't give one fuck if it was to scare me, because I was a kid! I was a child that didn't know how to stand up for myself. I was submissive, and I was hiding! I was afraid of the cops because I wanted to be one, until I was attacked on by cops in my childhood. I just didn't care to be that kind of man at all! I wanted to be better than you fucker! I wanted to "actually" help people, and not hurt them where they were already hurting. It literally makes me feel like saying, "fuck you you fucking sick, sick fucks!" I got so tired of the ways that I was being led into societal treatment, that it was as if I started to have to pay attention to how everyone is, and how their motives were. And, I started to understand the motives very well. Especially lately, in the ways that I've been being treated. Wouldn't you feel like you deserved protection? Wouldn't you want to find the laws that were supposed to protect you? Wouldn't you want to do some research on your own? Wouldn't you believe in free speech if you were subject to "tyranny?"
Take the show "Burn Notice" for another topic of this discussion, leaving all this gay topic behind us. They make everything seem as though people are going to get justice, like "Law & Order," where they have cops that actually care. If you're me, there isn't a cop that cares about the laws they provide people, rather then there own reality on making sure that you are going through hell to get your rights back and never be protected by the writing up of these laws that they made. Hell, I want to be made whole for some of the things that have been wronged me, but I can't find a lawyer, a cop, or any media that ever cares about it - and so much so, that I want to start my own media right here on Steemit. I get tired of the shows that are playing people into this image of this world as though if anything bad happens to you, that you can get justice, and in favor of moral justice, you can get liberty. Where I am coming from, you can't. You can get justice when it's too late, and they've already wasted years and years of your life, but when you finally get any justice, it seems, it doesn't really matter anymore because of all that time that was wasted on you trying to continue work and do what is right. You've already lost jobs, places to live, things that meant more to you than it even does your own family for them to mean the world to you, and still you are turned up with loss after loss and in the respects of the legal system, your family, and your friends, there is no justice that comes from within this world at this point because "time" and a lot of it has passed, so- from my own perspective, it's as though these shows and commercials are just training people to think that if anything happens to them, that they can get someone to hear them out, and do something about it. They can't all the time, and the life that follows is one that is created of statism, and satiating the satisfaction of authority and administrations of people that really don't care about anything besides their own silver lining they created where money means everything and people mean absolutely nothing.
Go ahead and count your dollars, and than go and count the respects that are happening from this world - are the people meaning more to your justice system and these people running the accounts of the administrations or are they caring more about people? You tell me!? Because, the way that I see things, is that money matters, and people amount to nothing to these people. Not even so much so, that allow you to fight for that money. You've been set up, out ruled, and justice is served where it wants to "serve" and "protect" you. Now the only difference is that it will definitely "serve" and "protect" it's own welfare rather than ever consider you in your life at all - nor what you're capable of, and not anything about where you wanted to be protected in fear of this very thing to happen.
In that regard, I know I'm capable of a lot more than I've ever been allowed to do in this world. The system inside is as wicked as the sinful evil that surrounds the idea that they can place fictional laws out there to protect you, but, when one of those laws is broken, you can get passed through the gauntlet of police and systematic destruction where your lives are forever terminated in the sense that you aren't so much as ever allowed to run your own sort of life and live the way that you were meaning to. You want work, or want a job, and want to do the right thing for your family and friends - well, that's just too damn bad where these people are concerned and as soon as you're allowed to make head weigh into your freedoms in life, and gain that financial stability, someone can come along and fucking take it from you. (Staking claims into what is supposed to be there to protect you even.) It's theft in favor of deceiving people, and making sure that you aren't able to be heard. Not ever. For if you get out there and make a difference in the world, you're going to be forever screwing these people over, and telling the truth about what they are willing to do, and they aren't willing to stop at nothing to get whatever it is that they want. (They are ruthless and heartless, and cold.) They want you to be jobless, not making money, they don't need your family on your side, they'll play on your desires if not even create them knowing that you've been poor all your life, so they'll find a way to trick you, they'll make sure that you are feeling sad, depressed and even hopeless in the fashion of going into ask for their "medications" by name, and all this truly does is satisfy these people to get away with murdering you, if not murdering the spirit of God within you. You see, it doesn't suit them at all to allow you to get a life. It's their families, and their own children who are now becoming the cops. And, they sure as hell aren't in that business to protect you. Yeah, the same people who bullied you in high school and did many "illegal" things over you in life are now those same silly people that are willing to trick your life up to where you can't find justice, anywhere - and, not to mention these people will pay a certain people off to make damn sure that the "cats in the bag, and can't get out." Lord knows what would happen if the truth got out and the people saw just how fucked up that truth was, right? You might not know what to do about your rights in the 9th and 10th grade, but growing up and wanting to learn the truth, and after watching 100,000 different videos or more and studying case after case, and reading between the lines of article after article - oh hell yeah, you're going to know that something more could have been done - but, the school system, and the people in your town aren't trying to teach you anything to protect your rights, or your families rights, or the money and income that you could have otherwise had, if you weren't "possibly" tricked, or if you weren't "possibly" shot at by some thug who became a cop and wants to keep his secrets in favor of his-self being able to keep his job as a police officer of that thing they call the "law" that gets ignored day in and day out to make sure that you can't be heard, and that you look as though you've eroded from the inside out, and no one wants to side with you, for just knowing the truth - or at least that there is a truth that hasn't come out yet. Keep sticking with the truth though, because Gods got a different plan, I believe, and even while you are here on earth. You aren't depressed, in my eyes, you're being pushed into a depressing environment, and an even more depressing financial circumstance that is completely taken over by thugs in the sense that you "paid right" and you getting "real justice" would gain you a really great life with happiness and even some "liberation" where you've needed it, and were allowed to get to that life that you wanted to get to. So much liberation that you would even cry. So much liberty that you would crumble and die inside, because you loved with your whole heart, and your whole life has been a circumstance created depressing thing, where you know you deserved that life that you were after. Wondering why you couldn't get it, is what made you study the things that you did, and you are the only person that saw these things, and really took a lot in and made perspective out of it. Not many people do that. Televison gets in the way, and people become brainwashed into thinking that they are better than you, or that they know more than you do, or that you wanted to just be on the same level as other people are and aren't even allowed to be, because people are being tricked into hatred and into slavery. This world is just not right. I don't think there is enough love, truth and prosperity in life to be telling me that this world - and the way it is, is at all living to humans fullest and most truest potentials. We simply aren't!
You can call 1 of 500 lawyers in this world, and if your situation doesn't talk, and money can't talk - justice goes unanswered. And, to tell you the truth, I don't think that these "people" bring justice at all, rather it is through prayer alone that God is in control of, and when you ask Him, and ask in Jesus' name, and you say Amen, and then believe, I don't think that anything can stop those things from coming to reality, as long as it is His will working through you. When it is your own will, it cannot come, because it is your own will, and not aligned with the Father. The Father has to come! The Father has to be apparent in your heart through the Holy Ghost.
