10 DAYS OF REFLECTIONS - EMOTIONAL STORY

in tendaysofrelection •  7 years ago  (edited)

There isn't much to actually say about my photo to be honest. However, it's been a trying day. I feel the need to get things off my chest and actually write a reflection.

My birthday is next Wednesday. I have always hated my birthday. The main reason was my ex husband. Him and his modther would always purposely treat me badly on that day and even go as far as telling the children they would be in trouble of they wished me a happy birthday.

That being said my 3 year long custody battle is almost over. I have kept quite quiet about it and anything to do with it this entire time. Only those that were super close to me knew that this was even going on and I could count those people on one hand. The irony of this is that it could make or break me emotionally. The day of my final hearing is the day before my birthday.

I am going to walk into court Tuesday, without a lawyer, against a convicted abuser who is narcissistic, that has a lawyer. I have had full parental responsibility and time-sharing via court order for 3 years and now it's being challenged on the finalization of my 3 year temporary order.

I have emerged my self for 3 years in court books, base files, free online classes, and so forth. My head feels like it is going to explode. I am getting down to the wire on this. Trying to come up with a solution to every angle that might be thrown at me. Trying to save my children from further neglect, abandonment, and abuse.

Take the next few moments to reflect back on your life and what you are fighting for!

Thanks @ilovedietcoke for initiating this challenge and thanks @old-guy-photos for doing it so I could find it. I am not too sure this will reach your notifications but I feel due just to reach out and give you a heart felt thanks because I needed my reflection today.


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Taken by me on my Galaxy S6 in ProMode on auto settings filtered in Frattal. This photo was taken at Wal-Mart in their home decor section.

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You seam to have a head on your shoulders and doing what is right for you and your family! Wishing you the best! It sure is great to just sit back and reflect sometimes! I love your photi as always!

Thanks skye.. this has seemed to consume me the past few days

Good luck in court. I hope it all comes out the way you want it to, and I'm sorry you have to even go through this. All my best wishes.

Thanks... I am hoping for a really good series of blogs when this is over... at least I can turn something negative into some positive hope for others

Stay strong and positive, I am sending you positive vibes and energy for it all to go your way as it should on Tuesday

Thank you so much. It means the world to me

That is so not right how you were treated. I wish you a HAPPY early birthday. Also I love your photo. This has been a conceptually challenging one for me, I am working towards day 6 currently. I love your #imkindaweird.... so am I!! Lol. Also thx for Resteeming my post =)
Following you now.

Thanks... im following you too!!!!

=)

Got to hand it to you going into court pro se! I know you've been working hard and waiting a long time to be done @deadgrlsuppastar
A few suggestions from my own personal experience.

  • Do your homework on the judge.
  • Don't be surprised if there's a continuance. Lawyers love playing that card.
  • Have all of your paperwork in files sorted by date with notes on Post-its about what's inside.
  • Bring an unbiased, non-family non-personal friend with you who could (and would) testify on your behalf. A teacher, coach, clergyman, physician, et cetera would be perfect
  • Expect the unexpected

Good luck!!!

Thanks nina... i have the case manager on my sons intensive counseling team coming in explaining that her team specialized in childhood trauma and that my family participates in it.. hopefully that will help..

Thank you for the mention and for having the strength to share your struggle. There is so much pain and sorrow in the world and Im sorry you have to face this.

BTW that phone takes a really nice photo!

Thanks for your support. Omg you have no idea.. i have mastered the art of using it.. when it is 16mp and you can adjust things on it.... yes!!!!

I’ve never been a big fan of birthdays myself. Somewhere in middle school I just stop caring so much about them. It’s more like a reminder the clock cannot be stopped and I’ve yet again not lived up to my inspirations in life. Some people on other hand love them so much now a days they have to have the entire “birthday month!”

Narcissistic sociopaths I swear are the devil themselves hiding in a human’s body. They twist things to such a degree makes my skin crawl.

I wish you the best of luck in keeping your children safe and happy. I can only hope one day your happiness for birthdays return or you are able to put up a good front and give your children the best birthdays they have ever had in their life!

Narcissistic is just a nice way to describe it...

I do my best to make sure my kids have awesome birthdays even tho i struggle with my own.. at least I can give them that now..

You got this, Liz. The hardest part has been the three years leading up to this. We can only hope that the truth shall set you free.

My hope. love and prayers sent your way.

Thanks... I have to go down to the court house today and file the last of my paperwork b4 tuesday