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My Name is Claueder Barros...
I'm on the computer, in my room, "my prison", having schizophrenia is like being in a prison without bars, my father lives in a place, and my relationship with him is usually better when it's over the phone, he doesn't allow me to enter the space of him, this place where my father lives is an island in Itacuruçá/Rio de Janeiro/Brazil, he just makes me leave and doesn't do the things I want to do, like planting, making my hut so I can live there " It's a big piece of land inside an Atlantic Forest, and the rest of the family are living their lives and I feel like a beggar, you know? people pass by beggars and their minds make them miss “most at least.
I'm talking about my father in this post because I'm very upset about a situation that happened, I was on the island, and my father was trying to convince me to leave because here there was better internet and more comfort, but I wanted to stay there , in the middle of the forest, I am quite angry. “this story is complicated” you will understand with time.
Here is a photo of the house that is in the forest, on Itacuruçá Island..
It's a pretty old house, it's been in my family for over 80 years, and it's currently almost abandoned if it weren't for my father living there.
I've been in therapy for 2 years, I was much worse than now, now I can leave the house at least and do some things I like, like being in nature and hiking, now with this blog I can share it with you.
I made many videos for YouTube making trails, I will leave a video of the island here…
So I'm going to create a mission soon, go anywhere that I can do a trail through the islands or through the forest of my city "Itacuruçá" the name of my city is not in Portuguese, it's a language called "tupi guarani" a language of indians and it means stone cross, another time I will tell more history of the city.
So the mission is to go on a trail and take lots of pictures to share with you, and get out of this room that I'm stuck.
Today I'm going to post more things about my story, I'm posting every day