All of us have our own decisions and choices, we chose to be part of this group, we choose to write, we choose to express. Big part if it, though we may not notice we are also making our decision to name ourselves when we are on blogging sites like this. Names have meanings and I am here to share to you my name and what makes it deep and important for me.
Sugar rainbow, sounds so bright sounds so sweet, but I really hope it means that way. Sugar because I am diabetic while pregnant and rainbow because I am carrying a new baby after infant loss. I'm sure you rarely hear about it, or some people say "that's okay, you will be having another baby anyway". When I hear people say this, it's just like Joey De Leon keeps on repeating that depression isn't real. Oh well, Let me share the most painful phase of my life.
I got pregnant June of 2016, I was working, no lates on 5:30am shifts, no absences, no issues, I was pregnant and healthy. Egerything went well during pregnancy except for uncontrolled blood sugar that I didn't think would hurt so much because I am not like other super diabetic pregnant women who reaches sky high on glucose levels.
December 2016, I opt to start my maternity leave to prepare for delivery. I wanted a natural birth because I want a lot of kids.. January 9, OB said I am 1cm dilated, I was asked to go back after 1 week, then I went back and complained about abdominal pains and she said Im only 2-3cm dilated, I was again asked to go home.. January 18 I had a membrane sweep at 4cm and it triggered labor.. 2 hrs of labor and my cervix arrested at 5cm, my baby just won't come out. Doctors decided to perform a C Section...
I heard him cry, I was so happy I thought everything was okay then he was taken away from me, after a few hours his pedia went to the recovery room and told me my SON has to be intubated because he cannot breathe...
All went black starting then, and he was a NICU baby, and it feels like there is nothing that I can do to carry him in my arms, he cannot breathe, he cannot eat, he cannot even scream...
AND THAT's the most painful part of being a mom... To see your child suffer and helpless.
I named him Lucas, and his story will be shared on my next post...
I love the story behind your username, sis. A bit sad though. Hope all is well.
On the other hand, I use "bloghound " as my username on most blogsites. The name came from my husband when I couldn't think of a good one. I use different name on other apps which has more meaning to it. You can also find me elsewhere as "soulfulmystery" :)
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we have different experience in life...happy, sad, and sometimes too tough to move on yet we must always remember that God will always make a way to open the windows....keep your life up...sis...love you
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Saken purely name ko lg talaga plus the number na hindi ko alam bakit ko nalagay. Hehe.
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Bobiecayao is the combination of my name and last name, i dont have meaning of it..but they said, its handsome =).
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So thats What your username means. Mine was syd30 because my name was sydeli and all of my friends called me syd and the 30 was my wedding anniversary with my husband
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I chose rainbowme because I don't like my life to be monochrome and my personality is multi-colored. ^.^
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I see why your name is sugarrainbow. Mine is gailbelga because my second name is Gail and my boyfriend's surname is Belga. We both wanted to get married sometime soon (and please help me pray that it will happen).
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I used rakitera, dahil mahilig talaga ako rumaket haha
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My greatest fear is to be pregnant. hehe. I am single ready to mingle. Joke. I am not single but not married friend and it is really my greatest fear to be pregnant and deliver a baby. When my father was alive, he often told me I shouldn't be pregnant because he's afraid to see me suffering in giving birth. My father did not know I'm scared of it since I was a child after I saw a Filipino movie which a woman delivered a baby at the hospital but died. You're a strong woman for liking to make many babies and I salute my mother for giving me birth and to all the moms in the world.
I am using lebron2016 because my sister is an avid fan of him.
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The meaning of your steemit name is so sad 😔. I'm sorry to hear about your son, Lucas...
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My username is actually my name, I just changed the spelling.
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I always admired mothers who love their children that much. I wish I had a mother like that.... my steemit name is a combination of my name and my boyfriends name.
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I hope baby Lucas is doing well now 😢 be strong mamshie you got an angel
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