Rome to Tuscany.
I’d done the relevant travel preparations that were tricky, but not impossible to organize through the Italian consulate. They had given me a two week tourist visa, with the possibility of a one month extension. During my visa application, I had had an inkling that I might not return home again, but I had shrugged this off as part of my excitement for travelling. As far as my visa was concerned, I was obligated to return after two weeks. When I said goodbye to my girlfriend at the bus stop before heading to the airport, my inkling loomed its head once more, and I felt the rush of the unknown surge through my blood. I really did not have a destination other than the two physical addresses in Tuscany and yet I felt like this was the beginning of an extended travel that could go on indefinitely. And then?…I loved the idea that followed, “Who knows?” It was painful and yet liberating, to know that I was doing something that gave my life meaning, more than the everyday routine I had become so bogged down in. Travelling always broadened my horizons and put me in the moment, so to speak. I was on the road again, tasting the freedom that nurtured my soul. I landed in Rome, Leonardo Da Vinci airport, late October of 2005 and caught the train to Rome Terminal station. Back at home, while preparing for my travels, I’d found a Lonely Planet guide at the local library. Not having had the means to actually purchase the book, I had written out relevant details and put together a little booklet of necessary phrases to say and places to stay, should any travel plans go awry. What I had not anticipated for, was the difference between the two trains that run from the airport to Rome. The regional train with its large cumbersome looking coaches versus the Leonardo Express, a by far more expensive and luxurious looking train. So, I had ended up taking the wrong train, thinking that I would cut costs and take the regional one instead. The Leonardo Express looked regional enough to me, but my assumption was met with a shocking surprise when the conductor approached me for my ticket and by the luck of my stars, perhaps, had let me off the hook for travelling on an expensive train with a cheap ticket. I apologized profusely and he, being able to speak some English, gave me a dead pan look and waved me on without charging me extra for the trip. I got to Termini with lots of time to spare. I had made it this far and I needed a small reward for my efforts. This was when a bar came into sight and the thought of taking my first cappuccino in Italy. I strolled into the bar, pushing my rucksack loaded trolley in front of me. Not knowing how or where to begin approaching anyone for what I wanted, I took a quick peek at my sheet of phrases and tried to memorize what was necessary to say. A very glamorous barista, caught my eye and I tried to impress her with my best Italian. But she did not hear me and instead shouted something back at me. I was quiet taken aback by her approach. I had not expected such, what appeared to be, rudeness. I managed to mumble ‘cappuccino’ in return, unable to retrieve my memorized phrase that seemed to be lost somewhere in the back of my mind. At that moment, I had beauty, rudeness and shouting, flung at me all at once. I mumbled something and tried to look confident, but my ears and cheeks could not hide my embarrassment let alone the cold sweat that was beginning to drip down my back and soak my shirt. Before I could get a grip on myself, she slammed a cup of foaming caffeine down on the counter in front of me and I could not help myself checking whether the cup had survived the ordeal in the same manner as my nerves had. Shattered. The cup proved the stronger of the two of us and soon coffee touched my lips as if Italy, herself, were kissing me. I was smitten. I stood there sipping at my addiction while throngs of caffeine addicts took their shots and cups of all shapes and sizes got smashed and slammed about on their daily rounds. I must say, that on that day, I truly was impressed by the resilience of Italian ceramics. I finished my cuppa, paid the glamour princess barista her due, grabbed my trolley and strolled out into the mass of humans pushing and rushing from here to nowhere that I knew of. It was time to get going. My next train was destination Pisa and I had to find out how to purchase my ticket. I eventually found out how and where to purchase the ticket, happy for the bit of English the ticket seller could speak and the hand signaled directions she gave me. But by the time I got out of her office and into the crowds, all that information had faded. I stopped for a while, trying re-capture what had been relayed to me. Some keywords, at least. But none came. It was as if my mind had stopped dead in its tracks. That was when I decided to walk on, heading in no particular direction at all. It turned out the right thing to do, because soon after that, I located my train and made my way on board. Pisa was a long haul from Rome which meant that the train consisted of pre-booked day coaches. After a finding my seat and sitting down, two other people arrived one after the other, and took their seats next to and in front of me. I said ‘buongiorno’ to them, but they did not notice my greeting. The conductor blew his whistle and the train doors slammed shut. We were on our way. The two people sitting near to me, a lady and a gentleman, although having got onto the train at different times, appeared to know each other intimately, and a lively conversation had started up between the two of them. After a while, they seemed to be including me in their conversation too, and I played along, smiling and pretended to understand what the conversation was all about until it became obvious that I was expected to say something. That was when they realized that I was ‘straniero’ and ‘non parlo Italiano’. That did not daunt them in the least, because they laughed and looked at each other while including me in their gestures, and continued. I felt part of their company and yet isolated for my lack of knowledge of their language. That was fine with me, though. It was my first day in Italy, I was tired from my overnight 16 hour flight via Dohar to Rome without a break and my train journey from Rome to Pisa, and I wanted to get to the guest house where I would spend the following two days recovering from my journey. I arrived late that afternoon in Pisa, giving a quick phone call to my host and waited for him outside the station where he would pick me up. He arrived in his black sports car and we headed toward the Marina where his guest house was located on the ‘Lungo Mare’. He spoke a bit of English but not enough for us to strike up a conversation, so the trip was quiet and I got to see the autumn colors along the road that led to the seaside. Once at the guest house, I first clarified my form of payment and my host was happy to take traveler’s cheques. After this, I went to my room and made myself comfortable. At a certain point, nature called and I had to use the loo and take a wash afterward. Having never seen a bee day before, I had no clue as to how to use this strange looking wash basin which I was sure was for children. Not only that, but I could not find any way to open the taps in the basin itself. There was nothing more to do than to sheepishly ask my host how to use the basin. He was quiet taken aback by my lack of first world knowledge, and I tried to explain to him that in my country we only had flush toilets and taps located on top of the basin. For him, it was obvious that under the basin were two foot pedals that operated the hot and cold water taps and that the bee day was for washing yourself after sitting on the loo for, well, you know what. I thanked him for his help and education and took to my Italian bathroom with new enthusiasm. When my time there was spent and it was the day of departure and the moment to make the final payment, my host refused my traveler’s cheques and requested that I pay him in cash. I had no choice but to ask him to drive me to Pisa where I could do foreign exchange. This was not in my favor though, as the only foreign exchange open on that day, was a dodgy little place around the corner from the station. I lost money that day, but unfortunately it was meant to be like that. My host got his cash and I went on my way feeling somewhat cheated. Because of my heavy baggage, I decided to push through to Podere to my next port of call, and not spend some time sightseeing in Pisa. I arrived at my next destination in time to meet my new host, who truned out to speak English reasonably well, and our drive from the station was a lively conversation. She could not understand, though, why I would spend such a sum of money to come all the way to Italy for only two weeks. Given that the exchange rate was rather high, it seemed an expensive undertaking for such a short time. She was right, of course, it was expensive. I had saved every penny I could muster, and had set out on a shoe string. Only the very wealthy from my country attempted Italy as independent travelers, the rest taking packaged tours of the larger more famous Italian cities. But I felt that my reason for being there was worth the financial risks I had taken to be there. My motive for travelling to Italy, began the day that, via a friend of mine, I had met a spiritual teacher who happened to live in Sicily. My correspondence with this particular person, had answered some vital and existential questions that had plagued me for the past fifteen years of my life, and he had invited me to attend a silent retreat that he was facilitating in Tuscany. I had taken up his invitation in the hope of finding out, once and for all, whether my yearning for inner peace and freedom was worth pursuing or just some psychological fantasy that had no reality other than what I fantasized it to be. I had taken the plunge, and had come to Tuscany, ready for whatever life presented to me.
It is strange to be known so universally and yet to be so lonely.
- Albert Einstein
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