Remember, Remember, It’s Not Yet September

The timeless in you is aware of life's timelessness. And knows that yesterday is but today's memory and tomorrow is today's dream.
― Kahlil Gibran

Aside from knowing that I'm Older Than I Remember, I also forget the time. Does it happen to you as well? If not then, you can officially call me crazy now, that I had actually forgotten the current month. Some serious signs of aging or mental disease perhaps?

I looked at the utility bill and I was quite shocked. So I stormed out of my place and asked the neighbor, why do I only have the August bill? I guess I was too concerned about paying the late payment fee. Then she told me, looking confused, but it's not yet September

It all began when I started traveling 4 years ago, living moment by moment from one country to another. I had no concern what day it was. I no longer dread Monday and not waiting for Friday, everyday is Saturday for me.

I jumped from one big moment to another, one different place to another. And all seem like big data now imprinted in the past, in this vault somewhere down my mind. I must admit that it was not easy, dealing with constant, radical changes require you to be mentally strong. I wasn't but I tried to be.

With my chosen mode of travel or lifestyle, 1 month in a country became too short for me. For example, I traveled around Argentina for 2 months, 1 week in a seaside town, 1 week in the mountains, a couple of days in a city and so on. Sometimes I could just decide to stay 2 weeks in one place, it depends on how much I really like it. Until these become days, weeks, months then years. I had no concept of time anymore, time passed just like that. No wonder I had forgotten my age! Time really flies when you are having fun.

I guess I have become timeless. I am time traveling.

The effect of my timelessness followed me until now. When I just returned from my long trip 4 months ago, everything has not changed. I realized how much I changed, big time, even with my concept of time. I no longer fit in the puzzle, but to overcome boredom and to deal with the travel nostalgia, I try to do the same - live for the moment.

But it does not mean I have no concern for my future or that I am not preparing for it. I actually came back just to secure my future to have a worry-free travel the next time around, with the project I am currently working on. A friend from Germany I met in Colombia actually told me to go for it and travel again later. So here I am.

Time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time.
― Marthe Troly-Curtin

When I was traveling, I embraced uncertainty like a friend. It is actually one greatest fear of all - the unknown. I can understand as you don't really know what's lurking underneath the murky waters, but what if there is a beautiful something under? A magical landscape full of rare flowers teeming with beautiful creatures like you have never seen before. If you don't dive into it, then it will be forever unfathomable, forever out of reach.

Life is all about new experiences.

In my experience, worrying is useless and a waste of time. I worried what would happen in the future, and what if everything would not turn out right? I learned that everything just turned out fine as the future came soon enough. It's quite interesting that I could look back during those worry days and how things turned out.

It does not mean that you will just wait and wish that everything will turn out like magic, you actually have to do something right now that will shape the things to come. Just don't forget to dance to the music along the way.

Get a breath of fresh air, now is an exciting moment of your life!

Once you start realizing how short life is and how time is really just an illusion, you will start living.