I see post's everywhere specially in social media about graduation,and seeing them wearing their graduation gowns. Some are white,other's are black with a little blue in it. And I have a cousin who graduated as a Cum Laude in college she is a Mass Communication major,I am so proud of her and at the same time felt a little envy of her achievements. I know how she struggled just to finish college,and finally she got her dreams. She's just a few steps away from success and I feel happy for that because finally she can help her parent and brother go to college. Seeing my cousins and nephew's posting their happiness because they are about to graduate,it made me remember what I missed when I graduated High School.
source link https://www.ocregister.com/2012/06/01/2012-orange-county-high-school-graduation-calendar/
I was a transfer student when I was in 4th year Highschool,I transferred in Fatima National High School in General Santos City. I transferred there in the midst of the school year,so adjustment was not that easy for me. I met new faces and new classmates,although they were so good to me I still miss my old classmates and my old school. I can't help but miss them and the life that I was used to before. But I still did it,I graduated with special honors because I was a transfer student I can't be in the first or second place,but that was okay for me. All I care about that time was to have high grades for my college.
I called my mama a month before my graduation and asked her to come over and watch me sing for our dedication party for the parents. She said she can't make it because of work and the budget isn't enough. i understood her although I felt sad I never complained and got angry like most girls do. So when I sang the dedication song for parents,we all have flowers to give it to our guardians or parents as we say thank you to them. I was looking at my classmates and batch mates giving flowers,kissing their parents,sister,brother and guardian while they were crying I was about to cry thinking who would I give the flowers that I was holding. I have teary eyes already while singing,I got so emotional and I just wished my parents were there too. I don't hold grudges and I am not angry that time,I am just sad and got affected by what surround's me. Well in the other hand,I still feel happy that I was able to graduate I just looked at the bright side.
I called my mom that night before the graduation,told her I would rather go home than attend the graduation ceremony. I said its okay not to attend because that was formality only. So I went home with my sister. Little did I know that I missed half of my life by not attending the graduation ceremony,because I didn't attend I was not able to know the feeling of graduating. I wonder how would that feel,I graduated elementary of course and I attended the ceremony as a Valedictorian but High School is different and I bet the feeling is different too. Hmmmm I wouldn't know how it would feel,I did not attend.
Well for now every time I attend graduations,it never missed to give me a teary eyes. I was thinking how nice the feeling would be if I attended our High School graduation. Well I can't bring back the time but I can still make it up with my kids,right? So I promised to be there once my kids graduated. I won't miss it for the world. I still feel empty seeing graduates and I often cry seeing parents crying out of joy. Well I can't always cry because of spilled milk,all I can do now is try to graduate college so in that way I can finally feel the happiness of the graduates. For all the students graduating out there and their parents,congratulations to you guys!!!