Once is a mistake, twice is stupidity, thrice is madness

I have always heard about the red string of fate from Japanese movies and anime. The idea seemed to be so absurd to me at first. I have always believed about love in the Biblical context. The idea then had gradually moved me and affected a small aspect in my beliefs. I thought to myself that maybe, I had my red string cut from trying to chase the wrong people in my life. Maybe I deserve this because I had been playing all along. According to Rain, he asked a shaman to curse my love life and would in turn make me an old maid.

When you get cornered, you try to be evasive.

"How many times will you attempt to fail in love?" Hanna asked me. "I do not know. Maybe, until I find the right one?" I answered her while swiping left and right to random people over Tinder. Tinder has been known as a dating app. I was bored one time that I ended up installing the app. Minutes after swiping left and right; I was entertained by flirting and even arguing with random people who are few kilometers away from me.

"Aren't you getting tired of that already?" Jam joined in. “Tired of what?” I asked in a question without looking at my friend.”Of going in the wrong relationship over and over again” she clarified her question. "Um I am getting tired of course. How about you Han? How many times will you fall in love at the wrong person?" I tried to divert the attention to the other person who happens to fail in love more than I did. "Stop it", she said dismissing the topic.

How many times was it? Three times already maybe? First with Rain, the second one with Dominic, then the last time was with Philip.
Oh Philip . I wonder how he is doing right now. They said he has already moved on from me and has been dating a school teacher few miles away from home. Whose fault was it anyway why we broke up? Would that even matter?

I was the one who broke up with him in the first place. What right do I have to open it up again? The reason why? Well, I forgot. Maybe I was filled with reasons that I ended up which one to point out as the mastermind.

We were so in love, but look at me now, I am dating another guy who lives in a city next to mine. I will be surprising Martin in few minutes so I bid goodbye to my friends after a short conversation.

Relationships do not usually last that long as usual.

Martin and I got along over tinder. We met at the mall where Dominic and I used to date. I was not guilty of doing such thing because we were already through; and that is because of his doing.

I felt a sense of connection when he told me he was adopted by a relative of his biological mom. He did not know it until he reached the age of 11 when his foster parents told him about it. I am adopted too and I never had any idea about who my parents are. The first time I knew about my situation, I wanted to look for them, but then I realized that they left me first so there is no reason to look for them. Anyway, I have a wonderful life already, thanks to them who gave up on me.

I packed my bag. I only bought a few set of clothes. My parents do not know but I intend to surprise my guy by travelling to his city.

We had been dating for six months already and I like the idea of going steady with him. Well, he is good-looking and gentleman afterall. We also think the same.

Surprise!

I was in the terminal when I called him. “Hi babe! Guess who is in your city?” I told him as soon as he answered my call. “Are you here?” he said and wasshocked. “Yes!”
“Why did you just tell me about this now?” he asked me. “Because if I tell you, my surprise would not be a surprise anymore” I said to him while laughing at the thought. “Okay, just stay in Dunkin Donuts and I will pick you up in few minutes”.

Pick you up in few minutes my ass! I had been waiting for him for two hours already and I am almost finish with the novel I started reading just few hours ago.
My phone rang. Oh! It is Martin!

“Hello babe!”

“Just meet me near the entrance, I am still parking my car” he said and ended the call. I went at the entrance and then I saw him. I immediately ran unto him leaving my bag to where I saw him and hugged him tight.

"Silly girl. You should have told me that you will be coming. I could have prepared you something nice” he said responding to my kisses. Never mind the people around us. I am not interested with what they think of us anyway.

We went to his car. He was cleaning the mess in his car when I noticed something, red lingerie. Okay! I dismissed any ill thoughts and was so giddy on the idea that he will be giving me a short tour of his city. First, we bought some rice and then we spend few minutes at the bay walk. I took of my top when we stopped. He thought I was trying to seduce him again but I was just trying to change my top cause it was really hot.

It was fun running and screaming at the beach while he was chasing me. We just stopped when I tripped over a rock. “Babe! Are you okay?” He asked when he saw some scrapes on my knees. “Yes! I am okay! This is nothing compared to what soldiers experience in battle” I answered him. He then gave me a piggy back ride and made me seat on his car. “Next time, you need to be careful. You are not getting any younger. Whatever happens to you might affect you in the future” He said with care while cleaning the scrapes from tripping off.

We went then to the mall. He had his hair cut. He looked more dashing than ever. He resembles Ian Veneracion a lot.

He asked if I want to watch a movie at the cinemas but I told him I was hungry. We headed to the food park where he treated me a lot of meal. I thought my stomach was going to burst from too much food.

It was pretty late so he suggested I stay on his place. As what I planned, I agree on what he said. It would be a time for me then to see how his house looks like. He showed to me the Koi painting I gave him last Christmas. He was very proud that he had it framed. He said his parents would even want to have it. I also saw some of his photos with his friends.
I wanted to spend the night being intimate with him—intimate in the sense that our conversation would go deeper and I would get to know him more.

I really tried to stalk him before on his facebook and instagram account but there were only little information about him. Maybe, he wanted his life to be in private. I sat on his lap while he was playing his PS4. He asked if I wanted to play with him but I told him that I prefer watching him play.

He was so engrossed in playing until dawn that I ended up sleeping on his arms already at his playroom. I just woke up and realized I was on the living room sleeping on top of an airbag. What time is it already? 10AM? Wait?! What?! I overslept. He was busy looking for documents when he saw.

“Do you want to go to the falls nearby?” He asked. I checked my phone first and then realized that I have 20 missed calls from my dad. I called him back and my dad was so furious, he wanted me to go home as soon as possible. I looked at Martin in dismay. “I wanted too but Captain is already mad at me”. “I will take you home instead, but first let us have breakfast. You better prepare yourself; we will be leaving in fifteen minutes”.

While trying to pee, I wondered why there were used sanitary napkins in his trash can. He also has two sets of toothbrush and feminine wash. He even restricted me to go to his room. I wanted to think someone aside from his is living in his house. I dismissed that thought and I do not want to argue with him especially that I just woke up. I might end up causing a commotion instead.

Sometimes, we mistake pity with love.

It has been weeks since Martin and I met. He went to Malaysia recently and had his business trip. I wanted to visit him there but he told me he will be going home soon. I was so excited and kept asking him day by day whether he would come home already or not.

I was in a leadership summit when he called me. I thought it was a long distance call, but it wasn’t. He said he is at the mall few kilometers away from me. He said he wanted to meet me because he bought some oil paints from Malaysia--- and he misses me so bad. I talked to the organizers and said that I needed to go home because there is an emergency. They allowed me to and told me to take care.

I met Martin in our favorite restaurant and then ordered my favorite Kebab. “I miss you so much” he said while hugging me. He handed me then a box. I opened it and was so happy on the items he bought for me. “Thank you, babe. You really know what I love”. I told him while a tear drop from my eye.

I missed him so much that I do not want him to go home yet. I told him that we should stay in a hotel because there were a lot of things we missed from each other. I got so horny too and I could not really contain it. He agreed and smiled happily at me while calling me little naughty girl.

We talked our experiences for the past few weeks and then started to take off our clothes when things were turning steamy hot. Our sexual attraction had always been intense that he could easily get his guy down there hard easily.

I love this hotel room because this was the place where we first made love. This was the place where he confessed that he has feelings for me. This place is so special to me.

I was on top of him trying to breath. Lately, my problems in breathing has turned bad that it really affected my sex life. He told me to calm down and gave me some water. He was tired too so he decided for us to rest.

If this thing is not love, I would still chose to stick with him. Aside from he is so good in bed, he has manners and he is already mature. He is ten years older than me. I love mature men too.

I woke up past 10 already and my tummy has not been feeling alright. Martin was then so tensed. I was experiencing hyperacidity. This is what you get for being so kinky. You oversleep and you forget about breakfast.

He wanted to sent me to the hospital instantly but I refused. I just told him to give me sone remedy. I saw how scared he was for me thaf he really hugged me tight.

They say, absence makes the heart go fonder but I do not think so.

Few days aftee, Martin said he needed to go back to Malaysia immediately because there is a business transaction that would require his presence. I cannot say no to him of course since it is his life.

Days passed, then weeks, then it turned to a month, I had no news from him. I was so furious that I wanted to confront him. I could sense that something is bound to happen.

He called at me over viber and I started nagging at him to tell me what is going on. He tried to calm him down but I said, "if you have to tell me something, you need to spit it out before I find something."

It provoked him and told me that it is his life and I have no business or whatsoever with him. I got more mad at him and told him that we should end our relationship. He agreed and then ended the call.

Being remorseful would not actually help you with a dying relationship.

It has just been few hours but I could not take it. I called him but he was not answering. I called him again but he said to stop bothering me anymore. He was building a wall or could it be that he was creating one before we ended up like this.

I felt miserable and ended up blaming myself. I wanted him in my life for good and wanted to see my future with him. I cannot help the thought that just with those senseless words, our relationship just ended that way easily.

I had been so depressed that I did not got to work for a week. My boss was so mad at me that he called me on the phone and told me to get back to my senses. I tried to be okay without him, but I also tried to contact him and I got no response.

I thought to myself, maybe I made a wrong decision again this time. It would have better if I chose Dominic instead of him, I might not be hurt like this again. But overthinking about past would not change anything especially when these people are out of your radius anymore.

The Revelation

It has been months when I checked my emails because I was sorting it out. I wanted get rid of the spam e-mails and notification e-mails from Facebook when I saw an unfamiliar e-mail address.

I opened my e-mail then my jaw drop. There was this girl claiming to be Martin's girlfriend. They had been together for two years already. She even included a photo of them on the same room that Martin and I had been sleeping. He even gave her the same stuff that he gave me from Malaysia.

I was so mad but what can I do? I was the number two. I just replied and told her that I am sorry. I never knew that her boyfriend was already taken and that rest assured we stopped seeing each other for few months already.

No wonder my cousin told me that I dated a guy who already has a girlfriend. I just thought she was referring to Philip and said that I knew about that already.

I wanted to cry but I cannot, instead I ended up laughing. I was just trying to delete spam messages and scam messages and here I am I found out that I had been scammed. Next time, I will do better in spying my prospect. I might be involved with a married guy if I don't.

I think my red string of fate got tangled with a wrong person again. This life is just so full of irony.

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