Once again, CONFUSION hits...

in writing •  7 years ago  (edited)

Guys before I say anything, I just wanna say that I am extremley grateful for all the people who have supported me since I've been using the steemit platform. It's been an interesting few months since I first created my account.

However, as a very expressive and sensitive soul, I don't shy away from talking about topics that maybe confusing me and making me feel upset. I prefer to get it out in the open and hope people from the community can help (as so often they do in previous rants like this).

As great as this platform has made me feel it's also had its incredibly low points and I guess right now, I'm at that point.

Since I've created this account, my main content I have been uploading is to do with creative topics. One of them is being apart of the openmic contest. Now the openmic contest is a fantastic way for all types musicians to upload a cover / original song and at the end of the week the winners are announced.

The other week I uploaded a video of myself performing in a church and played one of my best pieces of music and it got a great reception. Which is great (However, it wasn't deemed worthy enough to be featured in the judges top 5 entry picks).

As much as I felt slightly upset by that (as i honestly thought this particular performance deserved to win and yes it's not about winning but it certainly helps build your rapor), this isn't the thing that's the most confusing.

I've tried to upload content every day since starting and have maybe missed a few days here and there through various of reasons. My biggest post that recieved the most upvotes was my entry to the open mic week #82 and I called the piano piece "lost @ c #". I think it recieved in the amount of about $140 which is great and I thought to myself "finally getting the right types of upvotes and reaching out to the people who really do appreciate it, I'm starting to build some momentum". How wrong I was to think that as the next week I upload another entry and it recieves $1, which I just find incredibly insulting and just so bizzare to say the least.

How the hell can it be such a drop? I mean not even $10 which is still ridiculous drop but 1. I upload other content it doesn't even reach $1 and to be honest it does make me upset as I spend. Lot of time and effort in to uploading this content for the community and it just seems like the only way I can make anything is through the openmic section yet I'm now pretty concerned that even that was just a flash in the pan kind of thing.

Maybe I'm completely wrong and just need to be patient and continuing doing what I'm doing and eventually I'll give myself a big slap in the face for ever having any doubts over the platform. However not even getting $1 for songs / museums posts / digital art pieces etc etc is not convincing me I have any sort of real following at all.

I hope you guys don't have a go at me for this and can see where I'm coming from. I'm not trying to be ungrateful believe me I'm not, but at the moment in time it's certainly not making me want to continue uploading any creative content what so ever.

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hey @moderndayjester, well I had to make similar experiences. The one "Hit" that you had was owed due the fact that @curie and it's trail voted you. You might check out what @curie is and why he votes content. This is a trail of absolute whales with high votingpower for sure. If your content remains great, there is a good chance @curie will hit you again;) In the meantime I suggest to build up a community of good friends here on steemit and just post stuff you are passionate about and which will cause no frustration when not upvoted as expected. I think for us musician it is no waste of time to just record and upload our performance while we otherwise would have still made music and possibly uploaded on youtube and that was it. Here on steemit there is still quite a chance to become a millionaire but it could take some time and it should not be the first thing about your passion to make money;) So far you've got a new follower (me @senzenfrenz;) and I hope you will stick to steemit because people like you are real and without them steemit would only be a bot-bidding self-rewarding greater fool ponzi.

Hey man, cheers for your in-depth response bro. In terms of "the one hit" as much as I know that particular post was voted through @curie which was awesome, I thought it was all about building up a following and steempower and eventually each post (as long as it keeps with quality content) would begin to start to receive more and more upvotes. Over the last 2 weeks of open mic entries I have only received $3 and I've uploaded some great original tracks (without trying to be arrogant) so it just doesn't make sense to me what so ever. Also, I believe that the judges are biast and to be honest don't know what talent is, as a lot of there "winners" should quite simply not be anywhere near the top 5 let alone winning the competition. My entry that recieved the most upvotes of a any post I have uploaded so far "lost @ c#" should of easily at least been in the top 5. Playing in a church / beatboxing at the same time/ using the piano as a percussive instrument and the passion, soul and beauty of the piece is something that was 10000000% a worthy winner yet somehow, isn't a worthy top 5 entry?!?! Now I'm not expecting to be a winner all the weeks but i mean, if that entry doesn't even get in the top 5, then no other post I do will and that's why I know I'm never going to ever win the competition. However, like you said I need to just focus on building friends and developing a proper following first and not letting frustrations get the better of me if I don't receive the upvotes I believe it should receive. I think I'm gonna have maybe a little break and then come back with a fresh mind and right attitude so I can truly enjoy using the steemit platform. Thank you for your response bro and sorry if I sound like I'm ungrateful or sounding disrespectful I'm just really expressive person and just feeling really frustrated at the moment. Thanks again as this is what I needed. Much love bro

I understand what you are saying. Well, as I see the judges work, I think they're just judging by their personal taste and are mainly focused on voices (so literally "songs") and somehow have a similar taste chosing songs that have some kind of a sentimental feeling. I figured out (even with some of my entry's that they chose into their top 5) that not the best stuff was mentioned (musically or from perspective of skills and talent) but a somehow "message" or "emotional meaning" that was inherant. Unfortunately from my view those emotional meaning is presented very superficial and banal and you are right saying that they sometimes choose songs no one with a musical education would even consider. To me it is also quite intransparent what qualifies to be a judge. I don't know anyone of them outside from steemit, I don't know which musical education they have, if they are just music lovers or are a little bit more indebt. Again, to me that is not the point. I was frustrated too in the beginning, some of my entries even were overseen! But that's all human, and this is a decentalized platform and whoever wants can start a contest like this, announce whatever judges he likes and thats it, we have no right to complain about that. But frustration, yeah for sure, I know that feeling about steemit and openmic, too. If you are a little bit more into it, you will see that this is no issue compared to the shit on main trending page. There are some huge whales self voting and bid-botting their own shit. This is why steemit will eventually fail and why I appreciate everyone that joins as a honest blogger, musician,etc.

Just think about the fact that in the past, everyone were blogging for free, just by passion of sharing. So even if you get 1$ for it it's still very good. :)

Be well mate!