PixabayI am floating in a cloud of rare vibes this hour. It's heading to eight am on a cold Thursday morning and I am wearing a sincere smile in a long while. Yesterday night I figured out that something is working out for my benefit. It might be the reason I woke to such a beautiful dream earlier.
I might be able to manage to take my baby girl to high school, after all, thanks to having a good part-time boss. The weight of that thought is still being lifted as I still can't believe it's working out. I was deeply worried about failing her as she's brilliant and loves school. It would've been rough on her curious nature. I know that feeling and its not something I'd ever want my daughter to feel.
We (parents) obsess over protecting our children from pain and lack, right? Probably why now I am left obsessing over that move even as I celebrate this breakthrough. I do need to move asap! The paranoia of living where I live has heightened and I can't seem to let go. Why are we always afraid of what can happen to them? I blame these suffocating motherly instincts and the lack of at least 400 dollars. Can you donate? I'd gladly give you my PayPal.
Adjusting takes quite a toll and I can feel it trying to break my bones but it's also refreshing. It's this transition that I am going through that feels like emotionally draining and satisfying at the same time. What I mean is that even though I am going nerve-wracking challenges, I get to see all the three shreds of my souls healing me back with their smiles, laughter. endless jokes and a touch of chaos.
Life can be so mysterious sometimes. It can make one go through unexplainable emotions at the same time and leave a soul feel satisfied and overwhelmed. The way that I am feeling now. This hour is all about this huge win but something might happen the next hour and whisk me back to feeling the pressure of our need to move. With life, you win some and don't really get to celebrate as you are still on a tight race to score another win.