I have had the same kind of feelings. And when the new year hit I changed all that. I stopped drinking, started eating better, started working out, started reading more. I have had a really nice turnaround. I think the hardest part for me is the consistency factor. It is hard for me to keep going. My depression has put me in such a deep hole. Now I feel like I am starting to climb my way out. Every morning I wake up put on a pot of coffee, reread my goals and start thinking about what I need to accomplish for the day. I recently got a new job so it is frustrating learning everything, it also takes away from my reading and positive attitude as I have always struggled to comprehend complexities. I am more of a hands-on type of learner. But having to pass a standardized state exam is stressful, to say the least. I try and go for a run when I am feeling stressed and come back to the task at hand a little later. It has helped some but I think the most important thing is to just keep moving forward! Have an awesome week my man!