I Am In An Effort To Always Saving My Sanity because Of The Hordes Of Problems That I Am Facing

I can't do much anything around the house, I could not cook anymore, I could not tend our itsy bit of a backyard garden, I could have planted some hanging vegetables in there or better be in my own land or plot planting crops that I like just what my eldest brother is doing as his hobby. He has aquaponics and some vacant lot in front of his house which in fact is from a rice farmer.

So it frustrates me thinking about it, well I really could not force myself in doing things anymore because of the disability that I got plaguing me. I am just in a survival mode and still thankful that at least I am still earning cryptocurrency which again is a concern of mine because of its levels of uncertainty.

But I am really grateful that even though I haven't achieved what I am targeting for me health I am still able to bridge my life and not succumbing to my medical condition that terrible because without the grace that I got here particularly from this community I had been gone a long time ago from a lingering death.

The Internet like what I was always citing is a very big factor for my survival as a dialysis-leontiasis patient because it had provided me with information, entertainment, and financial gains that made me not to lose my mental health. I know that it is better for me to just give-up but it is not that easy to do. Again I do not want to die a lingering death which is why I am still going and going for me dialysis sessions.

Taking my own life is and will never be an option, I am just having a tough body that wouldn't let me go. So for me it is just moving forward and doing the best that I can with the help of God to improve my life because that is the only best thing to do with my kind of situation in this life.

For me as long as I can still walk a bit, eat a bit, and buy my necessities like my needed medicines I am contented about it for now and would just enjoy the short time that I am with my loved ones because nothing in this world is permanent, we are just passer's by in the instance of time.