最近发生很多事情，真的让我感觉到很心累。这些事情跟工作没有任何关系，都是生活上的事情。有的是鸡毛蒜皮，有的是能预见的未来一定会发生的事情。
这些事情没有办法躲避和逃避开，所以在工作不忙的时候，我就会时时感到很焦虑。更加深深的感受到以前老听老人们说的一句话，人到中年，无可奈何，中年危机等等这些字眼。以前小时候或者年轻的时候刚毕业，完全体会不到这几个字所代表的意义。
真的非常怀念以前上学的时候以及孩子还没出生之前的那20多年的快乐时光。到了30多岁，感觉身上的担子越来越重，压力也会接踵而至。
有些问题会随着时间或者人为因素而一个一个慢慢解开，但有些问题真的是你想躲避也躲避不了的，因为这就是人生老病死的自然规律。运气好的人也许是一段时间解决一个问题，运气不好的人可能就是短短的几年之内，很多问题蜂拥而至，一股脑的砸在你的身上，让你措不及防。
虽然在之前也会有所预见性，但是真正发生的时候还是会让你压抑得喘不过气。
具体是什么事我也不想用文字追述，感觉事情太多了，就算写个几千字也说不清楚。所以只想借平台发发心中的牢骚，排解一下心情。然后空闲的时候就去周围的公园散散心，逛一逛，看看天，看看湖。
也不知道是老天感觉到了我心情不好还是怎么的，最近武汉也是天气阴沉沉的，晴天基本上没有，不是阴天就是雨天。照片上拍下来的天也是灰蒙蒙的，正如我现在的心情一样。
虽然我已经极力安慰自己说很多事情是无法避免的，要学会长大学会坦然接受，但是一时半会心情还是难以调整过来。
可能还是需要一段时间吧。
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A lot of things have happened recently, and I really feel extremely exhausted. These things have nothing to do with my work; they are all matters in my personal life. Some are trivial matters, while others are things that are certain to happen in the foreseeable future. There is no way to avoid or escape from these things. So, when I'm not busy at work, I often feel very anxious. I have a deeper understanding of the words that the elderly often say, such as "being in middle age, feeling helpless" and "midlife crisis." When I was a child or just graduated from school when I was young, I couldn't understand the meaning represented by these words at all.
I really miss the happy times of the more than 20 years before I went to school and before my child was born. Now that I'm in my thirties, I feel that the burden on my shoulders is getting heavier and heavier, and the pressure keeps coming one after another. Some problems will be gradually solved one by one over time or due to human factors, but some problems are really impossible to avoid, because this is the natural law of life, old age, illness, and death. People who are lucky may solve one problem at a time, while those who are unlucky may have many problems rush in all at once within just a few years, hitting them all at once and catching them off guard. Although I could foresee these problems before, when they really happen, they still make me feel so oppressed that I can hardly breathe.
I don't want to describe in detail what exactly these things are. There are so many things that even if I write thousands of words, I can't make it clear. So I just want to take advantage of this platform to vent my frustrations and relieve my mood. Then, when I'm free, I will go to the nearby park to relax, take a stroll, look at the sky and the lake.
I don't know if God has sensed that I'm in a bad mood or what. Recently, the weather in Wuhan has been gloomy. There are hardly any sunny days. It's either cloudy or rainy. The sky in the photos is also gray, just like my current mood.
Although I have tried my best to comfort myself that many things are inevitable and that I should learn to grow up and accept them calmly, I still can't adjust my mood in a short time.
It may still take some time.
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