Yes Grinding The Years Out Of This!! My Life Story! (not really, figure of speech)

I got Grin Core Out Of This Grind Lore!! Escape the grid!! Flip the lid! Kicking And Screaming The bottom out! ON top from the bottom! My bottomless hunger pit is fit to get lit! Haha yea! It's just a natural high! Got to get away instead of getting off from the poison nipple. Get off the poison nipple. Yea that's what I tell younger folks nowadays, that all drugs alcohol and smoking, internet/game addictions is all just the poison nipple! Garbage that is not worth it. You were not able to give up the mothers nipple so now you gotta poison substitute nipple integrated to some kinda societally accepted nervous tick! Those integers don't add up if you really think you know your not a number me thinks right now.

All the years, wheres the peers? wheres the fears? what menacing travesty could go down my dear. No, not on my watch, to keep atop the twitch, the witch, the old bait and switch. Not to be confused in all the convoluted terms, to know how to read the culture, or have they burned out the compass? Forget all the exaggerating words, truth is stranger than fiction, could be more disorienting than a hallucination. Is this a hallucination!?

Whoaaa!!! Yeahhh!! Trippy!! Having a steemit hallucination!!! I feel in a dream like state where I'm flashing back to posting on steemit a long time ago, maybe 2 years, Awesome!! I'm freaking out!! Been posting consistently daily for a couple years. Just so insane. I'm remembering who I was when I started. Maybe I am a different sort of creature now in ways. LOL. It's not just The Steemit, it's real life too. Just remembering how I can feel insane posting daily for years, that's what I did on myspace! I'm feeling good at feeling mental! I like how others cracked and left steemit. I want to keep getting almost crazed like!! Just keep posting and commenting like a nervous freak tick!! Posting everyday on steemit is part of my Schizophrenia Lite!!!! I am so proud of it!!!

Okay now what to do for come down-ado!? Well it's just to be able to continue on in ways. Just grateful I was able to come this far and still be here. Still don't know what kind of real fun I could be capable of. I think I have some great spirit inside I can unlock if done right respect wise. I can let go without any drugs, hang ups, old routines etc. It's a meditative place of life. It's better the sweet spot then off the path. I trust conscience, so harmful coping doesn't go right with it, you know you don't deserve to self punish or punish others, yet recognize the urgency to attempt to deal with all these miscommunications and tall tales masked as doubts, while the true doubt cannot be doubted. There is still a basis in reality in any story. There is truth in any lie. You can recognize mistakes, at the same time if your not making mistakes your not learning.