I'm like a king with no crown See myself alone in the ground. Eyes watering, screams

I'm like a king with no crown
See myself alone in the ground.
Eyes watering, screams but with no sound.
Pretending, I'm like a sad clown.

A broken glass that can't be turned back.
Walking alone, I'm lost in the track.
Motivation is what I lack.
Reality is cruel and life's a crack.

Sometimes I fall deeper and deeper
I fed myself to a monster
Wondering, why everything have changed
This is hard, its out of my range

The world is cruel, I know it is.
A broken soul, I'm not at peace.
No sweet-words can comfort me
It's hard to get out of this cage, believe me

I'm all alone within this darkness
Will I be able to live in this world of nothingness?
In fact, I am scared.
Once you broke, no one cares.

Discourage, am I being selfless?
Found myself again, I'm restless
As time passes by it's getting worst
Just like an evil chant, you are cursed.

I have so many words to say
Happiness? It washed away
Suffering, day by day.
Hoping this pain will disappear, someday.

It's already 4 am in the morning.
I did nothing in the evening.
Tired, with these things that's happening to me.
I'm just an abandon toy, lonely me.

I have everything but somehow incomplete.
Overwhelmed by emotions, I quit.
Doubting my strength, am I weak?
Confusing, something I must seek.

Just stay away!
I was alone in the beginning, anyway
The skies are turning gray
I can't be turned back, there's no other way.

I'm trying to reduce the weight that I carry inside
My smile is obviously lie
In this intense battle, you're a lonely knight
Trying to survive in this cold night

Somehow, I felt better when I bumped my fist to the wall
Than to feel this heart with a large hole.
I couldn't run but I force myself to crawl
Deep down the abyss, there's a lost soul.