Those pretty words and those pretty names are icing on the cake you feed my soul. Giving me diabetes, you're no good for me. Toxic in a way that's so sweet. I can't breathe when I think about our intensity, the lust, love, but you're consumed with greed... I know what you can't see. Something I'm not sure you'll ever be able to see.

Past yourself

Into what's really important.

So many times you bashed those that came before you for exactly what you're doing. The string of sugar coated promises but you forgot something. I'm not just me. You forgot that he comes before me and in not seeing that I can protect myself from getting lost in the fantasy that is your lack of the true reality.

I've always said I'd never let anything or anyone truely hurt him. Your indifference did just that . Your broken strings of promises cutting the marrionette parts of my heart...making it that much easier to keep you at that distance.

Heartbreaker I'm not your northern Star I'm your compass and your a magnet....

You abandoned me to spin spiral, cascade into a hole that I've dug out of without you only to try to edge back in... But you know what's really sticking out?

He stopped asking about you, not because it hurt me, but because you hurt him with your separation and indifference. So many broken promises so many wasted words with no actions. He idolized you And now knows what not to do in the case of a break up with kids. You said you wanted to teach him... I was hoping it wasn't the book on how not to leave... Was hoping all those whispers of forever meant something... I've lost hope