Dear Diary

Im in rough spot again. Crap is affecting my central nervous system/ autonomic nervous system. Fight flight pain brain hormones pituitary gland pineal gland gaba. Hard to talk, hard to function, hard to orchestrate what i need done, no money, no insurance, no educated health practitioners, no medicine, no real deal help. This shit is fixable, i know it is. I have my strong suspicions and i know what i need. Its a multi angle approach but the main thing i need is something to calm down the nervous system (i really wish marijuana helped but it doesnt). On top of it all, is normal life, something i haven't been apart of too much. No one understands, no one sees, no one really cares. I will heal or i will die trying. I need some help.