"Hey Hon - can I get some info from you."
With a snicker, he says "oh what a minute, you don't call me Hon anymore. You just call me by my name, right?"
"I'll call you by your name since you call me by mine".
How should I respond? I was so angry. In my head I screamed "MF why would I! Isn't there someone else that calls you HON?!? aren't you someone else's HON?!? You gave away my name!!!"
"You left me!!!!"
Asshole!
Then, the desperation sets in.
"Am I still your Hon? Can we make up - forgive and forget? I want you back!" But I can't bring myself to say the words...its like begging. Am I wrong?
It's surreal, I am caught in that strange place of wanting him and hating him. I've turned into a coward. I can't put my foot down because I am afraid to lose him completely. At least, if we are squabbling, I still have a chance, right? It means we are still in a relationship .... right?
I am lost.