Self Care with Space Stace : The Next Step

If you've been following my steemit journey, you know I've been through some shit and It did a number on my mental and physical state. This stuff I'm dealing with now, isn't something that has been done to me. This, is damage of my own doing. This is why I have been following what I like to call the " unfuck yourself" program, straight from the dome top. Forgive my sailor mouth tendencies because I have to tell it like it is. Last year was a tough one. Really, I could say that about the past 28 years but to avoid being dramatic, I'll stick with the time I started to get serious about my mental health. I am at this point in my life where I can see the big picture and what I can do to live a better life for me and my family and my community right here and now.

This stuff really isn't anything new. Nothing I learned wasn't anything haven't known in the past. What I need to do is everything I don't want to. I am seeing just how deep rooted my suicidal thoughttage ran. The first step was admitting that I have a life worth living. But that's just the first step. Knowing is half the battle. So, if you feel like you are having some fucked up thoughts, feelings, etc, don't brush it off. That shit can stack up and before you know it you're so full of heavy, murky energy that you can't even get up in the morning. So, if professional help is something you need and you have access to it, do what you have to do. There is no shame in getting your mind right. kindness cost nothing so yes, you can afford to be kind to yourself. You have time. A big part of maintaining my thoughts and feelings has been journaling, meditating, and breathing exercises.

This past weekend I took the next step in my "unfuck yourself" program which was physical fitness. I kinda did something impulsive on the way home and joined a gym. It's for a good reason so, worth it. This next step is not just me joining a gym, but also starting to eat better. Today was the first day switching my diet to fit my needs and it's not that bad. I get to cook my own meals which I really don't mind. I love cooking so making delicious healthy meals is easy peasy, with the right herbs and seasonings. Today I prepared brown rice with quinoa and some purple and white carrots with green beans, purple cabbage. I rationed it out to eat every three hours which was recommended to me. That is one thing that I have to get use to, for sure. It forced me to pay attention to my diet which honestly was left up to the gods before today, lol! I usually just prepare my kid's meals and eat whatever is left. I might as well cook better for the whole gang so that's what I'm going to implement tomorrow.

The perks of going to the gym : Looking back, I can see this as a strategic move against my reclusive tendencies. Really, I could have just started an at-home routine. So, why join a gym? Well, for one it is what I was use to in the navy. We had some awesome gyms on base so I always had access to the gym. And the second reason I joined a gym was to open myself up to my community. Just like I stay in PALnet or @untiyguild because it is filled with like-mined people, I joined a gym because I wanted to be around like minded people and really form those relationships with the fitness community for the simple fact that no human is an island. Sure there are lone wolves but even my friends who enjoy their solitude have their inner circle. It will be much more likely for me to accomplish my goal if I'm around others who have a similar goal.

Eventually I even told the personal trainer that did my health assessment, I could see myself in his shoes. He is a fellow veteran and knows exactly why. For me, I was at my best mentally when I was at my best physically. So it's really the best medicine I could give myself. Let's see if I'm right about this. I'm excited to find out.

One Love,
Space Stace out <3

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