— SteemCN

Yeah YouTube was nice sort of.

But you can reach this level of popularity where you see how it just works as a distraction so you start to distance yourself from it. Since I wanna be more real and authentic. Not just be a product that get's consumed. This sounds of course super cliche since literally every person that get fame in something tells about it.

And of course you can't tell anyone about it because who would be able to relate? Unless you have super popular friends or someone who has made it of course. Because you sound like you think you are special if you talk about how much fame can suck. Since the average person only see $.

You become this "thing" where everything you do can get analysed. Only thing you can do is create distance. You start to question who you are. And more distance is being created. It's been taking me years to figure this "thing" out. When all is new and fresh it's cool. But as the years go on. Well people can't relate. They don't know what you are.

The yes men... the fake... the copycats... people starting to talk like you... some gossip... Just all of this takes a couple of years to fully process. I get questions literally everyday asking why I'm popular. They are suspicious about me.

You also get tired of talking about yourself lol. You wanna feel like a normal person again lol. But you need to sort of develop 2 split personalities 1 the external side and then the real side. And then people get more suspicious on that lol... And you get more fame from it... No matter what you do fame always goes up lol....

You see how certain things are connected and it's as if you are on this ride you have no clue where it will take you.

It's interesting to see people's personalities. I like to see if a person can apologise and look at the facts. When you put real stuff out there you start to see if there is a "dark side" in a human. It expose people. Doesn't matter if they react or not react. It's still expose. Since non reaction reveals a lot about a human. That they may try to just ignore you. It's a test to see what a human are in different situations.

I have called out DTube when I felt they where making the system like communism. I have done the same about Steemhunt and had a great chat with a moderator which now I highly respect. I have disapproved of stuff they have done and voiced my opinion and still got support after. I also once voiced my opinion about dlive 100% upvote a female which was 20x the usual amount. Seemed a bit unfair. And I got an upvote a few days later on a new video. I just put my words out there and then people's personalities comes out.

Who is mature and who is not mature. Who is trying to grow and who lives in some closed off denial world. It does speed up the process of who likes you and who really doesn't. Instead of having this slow drag of people. Realness makes many uncomfortable. Many watch you silently on the side but doesn't wanna fully get involved. But in a way when you go through a lot so to say you develop something more many times if you can come to some understanding.

It may look a bit rough and hard on the surface. But what is the alternative? Nobody ever say something? No realness ever be created? I'm pretty passionate about this area.

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